I have a problem.
So yesterday was the “official” breakup between me and Alexa. It was mutual, and she was honestly feeling the same way I was, and that we just weren’t going to work. She’s amazing, yes, but apparently just not meant for me.
So, here’s the thing: I’ve felt for the past three weeks or so like I’m single, and not really in a relationship. This became apparent when I realized fairly strong attraction so someone else. This made me feel very confused, and made me start thinking about what’s felt wrong. I talked with someone about it, and that’s when I came to the realization that I needed to break up with Alexa.
Now, for the real problem…things with this other girl are moving a lot faster than I wanted. While I could sit here and go on about reasons why I could justify it, I still feel like kind of a jerk for moving so quickly, and it’s really getting to me. I don’t really want this to be a fling, or a rebound, or what have you, since that’s really not healthy, and I feel like that’s not the type of person I should be. But then again, I moved on after Jaylene really quickly. Not nearly as fast as this, but still.
The sick part is that I’m enjoying the time with said new girl. I’m really not sure what I’m going to do about this. I’m in a spot to potentially really piss people off, and all because I’m being selfish and going with something for myself.
*facedesk*
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